the same things happening to me all the time even in my dreams

Teen Suicide

I have dreamt about what it s like to die
And I saw myself becoming shadows again
Just like I did when I was a kid
I saw my bones crack open
And all the things I ve been hiding from you spill out
All the secrets that I never thought I d tell anyone about
I am warm and I am bored
And I am drifting through this place
It s no better or worse than anything else
That s ever happened to me
But I wish that I d never met a lot of the people that I ve met
Not because I don t like them
But because I only let them down
And when you disappoint everyone all the time
It s hard not to want to die
Constantly I feel this weird and shameful feeling
Like im being watched by a thousand glowing
Vengeful eyes
Behind one way mirrors in public bathrooms
And in metro cars
And everywhere I go I know I m not welcome