here alone again

Olivia O Brien

You said that I was just a lesson
That you had to learn
Not to get involved when you re not over her
That s something that you probably
Shoulda told me first
Cause I am not your teacher
This is not a learning curve

I showed you everything, I really let you in
Took you to all the places that no one s ever been
Now it s back to square one
Done before we ve begun
Now I feel fucking stupid cause I don t like anyone

So why d you fuck me like you love me
While you looked me in the eyes
If you knew that I was nothing
But a way to pass the time?
Why d we make plans for the future
Staying up til morning light?
Why d you fill me with your sickness
and then leave me there to die?
I was only there to keep you warm
On all your lonely nights
And of course I m disappointed
But I m not fucking surprised
It s just something that I m used to now
But I m still gonna cry
I was waiting at the checkout
You just tried me out for size

I guess I didn t fit right
So I m here, alone, again

You said that timing is a bitch, I have to disagree
Cause you d throw caution to the wind
If you really liked me
We can t be something right now, but one day we can see
Right person, wrong time
Is just a lie to set you free

I showed you everything, I really let you in
Took you to all the places that no one s ever been
Now it s back to square one
Done before we ve begun
Now I feel fucking stupid cause I don t like anyone

So why d you fuck me like you love me
While you looked me in the eyes
If you knew that I was nothing
But a way to pass the time?
Why d we make plans for the future
Staying up til morning light?
Why d you fill me with your sickness
And then leave me there to die?
I was only there to keep you warm
On all your lonely nights
And of course I m disappointed
But I m not fucking surprised
It s just something that I m used to now
But I m still gonna cry
I was waiting at the checkout
You just tried me out for size

I guess I didn t fit right
So I m here, alone, again

But don t let these words inflate your ego
Cause I think you re a fucking weirdo
I don t like you, I was bored
Cause I ve done this shit so many times before
Yeah, I m just mad at the fantasies
And the fact I let myself believe
In something that just wasn t real
Yeah, I just liked how you made me feel
(I just liked how you made me feel, yeah, yeah)

So why d you fuck me like you love me
While you looked me in the eyes
If you knew that I was nothing
But a way to pass the time?
Why d we make plans for the future
Staying up til morning light?
Why d you fill me with your sickness
And then leave me there to die?
I was only there to keep you warm
On all your lonely nights
And of course I m disappointed
But I m not fucking surprised
It s just something that I m used to now
But I m still gonna cry
I was waiting at the checkout
You just tried me out for size

I guess I didn t fit right
So I m here, alone, again