why would i now

The Decemberists

Have I ever lost your way?
Have I ever left you waylaid?
Have I ever come unstaid?
Why would I now?

There were times I loathed your name
There were times I laid on blame
There were times I brought on shame
Why would I now?

But I will never be your familiar soul
And I will never see your interior whole
But have I ever stood back and watched you fall?
Ditched your call? Cut you, bend around?
Why would I now?

Have I ever steered you wrong?
Have I ever strung you along?
Have I ever kept you long?
Why would I now?

There were times I broke through the walls
There were times I broke through it all
There were times I fell so hard
Why would I now?

But I will never be your familiar soul
And I will never see your interior whole
But have I ever stood back and watched you fall?
Ditched your call? Cut you, bend around?
Why would I now?

Though the years they may unbraid you
How it all nearly unmade you laying down
Why would I now?

Remember when it all went dark
Remember when it first ran apart
Remember how I held my marks
So why wouldn't I now?

But I will never be your familiar soul
And I will never see your interior whole
But have I ever stood back and watched you fall?
Ditched your call? Cut you, bend around?
Why would I now?