the only thing

Sufjan Stevens

The only thing that keeps me from driving this car
Half-light, jack knife into the canyon at night
Signs and wonders: Perseus aligned with the skull
Slain medusa, pegasus alight from us all

Do I care if I survive this?
Bury the dead where they're found
In a veil of great surprises; I wonder did you love me at all?
The only thing that keeps me from cutting my arm
Cross hatch, warm bath, holiday inn after dark
Signs and wonders: Water stain writing the wall
Daniel's message; blood of the moon on us all

Do I care if I despise this? Nothing else matters, I know
In a veil of great disguises; how do I live with your ghost?
Should I tear my eyes out now?
Everything I see returns to you somehow
Should I tear my heart out now?
Everything I feel returns to you somehow
I want to save you from your sorrow

The only reason why I continue at all
Faith in reason, I wasted my life playing dumb
Signs and wonders: Sea lion caves in the dark
Blind faith, God's grace, nothing else left to impart
Do I care if I survive this, bury the dead where they're found
In a veil of great surprises; hold to my head till I drown
Should I tear my eyes out now, before I see too much?
Should I tear my arms out now, I wanna feel your touch

Should I tear my eyes out now?
Everything I see returns to you somehow
Should I tear my heart out now?
Everything I feel returns to you somehow