never had the balls

Rex Orange County

I was lost, felt nothing at all
But I'm coming back now
Yeah, I'm in the background
No need to react now that everything's done

(But let me say)
I thought it would be simple enough
And I had to grow up
Just to learn all the ways that it's not

But I never thought that I'd wanna call it quits
In my whole life
I never aimed to feel confused
I blame myself to tell the truth

But now I know that
Everything's hard when you're living in the dark
And you don't even wanna see it through
If that had to be the way I'd be feeling for days
And I knew it back then, I probably wouldn't do it

But I never got the chance to tell you
I never had the balls to tell you
No, I never had the balls to tell you

I did everything that I could
But still I was helpless
I shouldn't waste my precious time
On anybody living off of mine

And now I know that
Things are getting better
I can live like this forever
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

When I found my own way out
Was to open my mouth
And be honest
I had to go and do it, yeah

This could be the best decision
That you ever make
Please don't be afraid
She reassures me

I know it's hard to play pretend
I promise you it's due to end
And winners never quit, you know
So quitters never win
(It's only getting better now for you)

I'm your man if you're looking fro good times
Feel amazing and I'm on my way home, yeah
I'm finally in the zone
I heard the word 'Goodbye'
And felt surprised that I wasn't even sad
In the slightest
My mind was made up, but
If I had to life only being polite
I'd be giving in
I'm never gonna do it

I'll never get the chance to tell you
I never had the balls to tell you
No, I never had the balls to tell you, now
(Whoa-oh-oh)

(Balls to tell you)
(Balls to tell you)
(I never got the chance to tell you)
(I never had the balls to tell you)
(Balls to tell you)
(But I never got the chance to tell you)
(I never had the balls to tell you)
I didn't
(Balls to tell you)