first heartbreak

Lauv

I wanna tell you
I m right here
But I m still so angry even after all these years
I know your family was falling apart
So I don t blame you, but I still have a heart

All of my friends and my therapist say
That it s nothing and I ve gone insane
Everyone says I m a narcissist
Truth is, I just haven t dealt with the blame
You chose the drugs, and now everyone else is your friend
And I m left in the flame
There s nothing like first heartbreak

Know I should move on
God knows I ve tried
But I hit this strange wall without you by my side
We were forever, at one point in time
The night you left me
You left me half alive

I started running, got faster and faster
But I just couldn t get away
All of my problems got bigger and bigger
Until I couldn t feel the pain
Cause you chose the drugs
And now everyone else is your friend
And I m going insane
There s nothing like first heartbreak

Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh

I had to lose you to find myself
You can t know heaven until you know hell
I ll always love you, even if you re gone
I m letting go but always holding on