lonely at the top

J. Cole

Bah-bah-bah, buh-bah-bum-bah
Buh-buh-buh, bum-bah
Bah-di-ah-di-ah
Bah-bah-bah, buh-bah-bum-bah
Buh-buh-buh, bum-bah
Bah-di-ah-di-ah

Yeah, listen, I want to help my favorites
To find that spark again
Somewhere deep in their hearts again
Man, chasin them is how I made it
I felt this for a while, but couldn t frame it
In the proper rhythms
It seems like they stopped
Just like givin a fuck and I fuckin hate it
Cause where you supposed
To look on days when you feel unmotivated?
When all your heroes either disappeared or sound so deflated
The younger generation hellify, no, I won t debate it
But they want what I got right now
And one day they gon obtain it
Still I find it hard to replicate what I m longin lately
That childish admiration like back
When I had posters hangin
I do my best with this first, but shit
Maybe there s no explainin
Just ventin , it s no complainin , but listen to me
For years, I felt like an only child
With no one to play with
The older kids I watched run up the slides
The wrong way or hang upside down from monkey bars
While I was lookin from afar
Just hopin for that future day
When I d be able to do the same shit, but now that day s hit
Momma done let me come outside
But now them slides are vacant
The big boys done skated
They pockets got too grown
For some it seems that love is gone
And now they pass the time
With expensive glasses of wine at locations
With the finest accommodations
And I ain t hatin , just more so thinkin
About complacence and the realization
That one day that s what my fate is
Their greatest hits fill up my playlist
Not so much their latest, and I fuckin hate it
For selfish reasons I think I could help them
Reignite the flame and fall in love with this again
If they could trust in young Jermaine
We d do our drills, we d shake the rust
We d blow the dust off of the pain and go shake up the game
And maybe then I d have someone I want to be again
But even as I write that thought, I don t believe it, dang
Cause maybe it wasn t even them
It s really me that changed
Maybe it wasn t even them, it s really me that changed
Hmm, shit

I never understood the phrase It s lonely at the top
Until I scaled that mountain all the way up til it stopped
And if you re ever blessed enough to make it to this spot
You ll see the ones you looked up to
Unfortunately, had to drop
I never understood the phrase It s lonely at the top
Until I scaled that mountain all the way up til it stopped
And if you re ever blessed enough to make it to this spot
You ll see the ones you looked up to
Unfortunately, had to drop (Drop)